[ Somehow, saying "in bed" feels too vulnerable right now. ]
I was just gonna say if you were still close you should stop by
[ Right on cue, he's nervous again. Kaladin hasn't forced him to guess at his intentions or given him reason to doubt, so why is he holding onto that feeling? It makes him want to try again. More honestly, this time. ]
When I read it I just really wanted to see you lol
As a guy idk how to feel about getting called beautiful but when it's you it's different. You make me feel good about myself. And even though I give you a hard time a lot you say it anyway so it's like you mean it twice as much
( Noctis' responses... Well, they aren't what he expected to hear.
They're sweet. Brutally sweet. Kaladin can't contend with that, nor can his thankless job. He's doing good in the city, but he's still new to modern medicine; his coworkers provide better care than he does. They know now why he lags in learning, his identity exposed at the convention. They support his desire to carry out both responsibilities—to LILITH and Neo Tokyo Central Hospital—but ultimately, they can't understand his frustration in choosing between them.
Noctis can, and that makes him want to play hookie.
They promised each other they'd use this time to live. Kaladin swore an Oath to Noctis to try because he wanted to know what being free felt like. Not physically, not after being emancipated on the Shattered Plains by Dalinar, but mentally. Not unburdened, but less burdened. Kaladin's never met a man so committed to relieving the pressure of the past simply by persisting—against all of life's disappointments—to be him.
Noctis Lucis Caelum, the Crown Prince and prophesied Chosen King of Lucis, saviour of Eos. Compassionate, skilled, driven.
Noctis, one of the great loves of his life. Fierce, introverted, sweet. )
I'm satisfied it's different I mean it When you look at me I feel like a weaker man
I'm used to having to be strong Still it's It's nice
Would you think less of me if I told them I couldn't work a double It's not like me to do so but I'd prefer to spend time with you today
( Kaladin has a duty to Earth because LILITH tells him so, and his devotion to helping its people could never be questioned... but it is vastly overshadowed by his duty to Roshar and Bridge Four. His friends. His family. His loved ones.
Why does that set his face on fire, envisioning exactly how Kaladin would've said it with that intense expression on his face and passion in his eyes? He'd reassured him once that they could be themselves with each other, in whatever form they took on that day. The Noctis that fights hard and hates to lose. The Noctis that's competent and listens to the troubles of others. But also, and more critically, the Noctis that struggles to keep a clean room. The Noctis who sometimes likes to hide from the world.
Kaladin makes that okay. He wants to make it okay for him in return.
To be weak, with him, in private. Protected and safe, just them. ]
( Used to being weak alone, hugging himself in a dark room, a change is greedily welcomed. He shouldn't invite Noctis this far into his soul without carefully considering it, but his desperation to be embraced by warm, safe arms while he agonizes is too great to deny.
His good mood now won't last—it never does. Why can't they prepare for that together? Why can't they prepare for Noctis' bad days, too? )
But Noctis Don't call yourself selfish There are many words I'd use to describe you and some are even negative but selfish could never be one of them You've always taken care of me
( Throat tight, Kaladin turns on the sidewalk and issues a too-formal statement to his coworkers. He won't be coming in for one shift, potentially two, because he wants to spend time with his lover. They reply quickly, nonplussed, in pages of emoji and words read loudly by his implant.
Summarized, their approval is heart-warming, and his doubts are eliminated on his walk back to base. )
I'm on my way back Shouldn't be too long so don't fall asleep again
I could say maybe you're too easy to impress but that's my win so I won't fight it
[ Another gentle tease right before Kaladin announces his intent. Just like that.
... suddenly he shoots up out of bed, ignoring Chauncey's annoyed "mao" in order to beeline immediately for the shared bathrooms down the hall. Kaladin – his boyfriend – is blowing off work to see him, mere hours after their mutual confessions. No way is he greeting him looking less than his best. ]
Seriously? Yeah no I'm good, I'm up, and my roommates are out
I told them I'm taking a vacation day to spend time with my lover They were surprised but happy People have been trying to slow me down for years telling me I'm overworked It seems only you've managed it
( Even Kaladin is concerned now with his appearance. Not overly, but he smells himself, makes sure his breath is fresh enough, and rubs tiredness from his eyes. His hair stays in a messy updo, usually unsure of what to do with it.
And considering he didn't get very far before being called back by Noctis, he fast approaches LILITH's temporary base. )
I'm not easy to impress My standards are high and I'm slow to trust You're Well I'm the winner
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Yes of course it is I just
No I've never been called that
Not romantically
Thank you
I think you're cute too
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Is this where I ask if you're mocking me back?
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But I'm not mocking you
( Before he loses his nerve, he quickly and quietly adds: )
I think that you're beautiful
1/3
2/3
[ The name is immediate. However, there's at least three full minutes of silence that follows. ]
3/3
1/3
What
2/3
What
Kaladin what
3/3
I'm heading to the hospital for my shift
Where are you
1/2
[ Somehow, saying "in bed" feels too vulnerable right now. ]
I was just gonna say if you were still close you should stop by
[ Right on cue, he's nervous again. Kaladin hasn't forced him to guess at his intentions or given him reason to doubt, so why is he holding onto that feeling? It makes him want to try again. More honestly, this time. ]
2/2
No one's ever said anything like that to me so
When I read it I just really wanted to see you lol
As a guy idk how to feel about getting called beautiful but when it's you it's different. You make me feel good about myself. And even though I give you a hard time a lot you say it anyway so it's like you mean it twice as much
Thanks
1/2
They're sweet. Brutally sweet. Kaladin can't contend with that, nor can his thankless job. He's doing good in the city, but he's still new to modern medicine; his coworkers provide better care than he does. They know now why he lags in learning, his identity exposed at the convention. They support his desire to carry out both responsibilities—to LILITH and Neo Tokyo Central Hospital—but ultimately, they can't understand his frustration in choosing between them.
Noctis can, and that makes him want to play hookie.
They promised each other they'd use this time to live. Kaladin swore an Oath to Noctis to try because he wanted to know what being free felt like. Not physically, not after being emancipated on the Shattered Plains by Dalinar, but mentally. Not unburdened, but less burdened. Kaladin's never met a man so committed to relieving the pressure of the past simply by persisting—against all of life's disappointments—to be him.
Noctis Lucis Caelum, the Crown Prince and prophesied Chosen King of Lucis, saviour of Eos. Compassionate, skilled, driven.
Noctis, one of the great loves of his life. Fierce, introverted, sweet. )
I'm satisfied it's different
I mean it
When you look at me I feel like a weaker man
I'm used to having to be strong
Still it's
It's nice
2/2
It's not like me to do so but
I'd prefer to spend time with you today
( Kaladin has a duty to Earth because LILITH tells him so, and his devotion to helping its people could never be questioned... but it is vastly overshadowed by his duty to Roshar and Bridge Four. His friends. His family. His loved ones.
He considers Noctis to be all four. )
1/2
Why does that set his face on fire, envisioning exactly how Kaladin would've said it with that intense expression on his face and passion in his eyes? He'd reassured him once that they could be themselves with each other, in whatever form they took on that day. The Noctis that fights hard and hates to lose. The Noctis that's competent and listens to the troubles of others. But also, and more critically, the Noctis that struggles to keep a clean room. The Noctis who sometimes likes to hide from the world.
Kaladin makes that okay. He wants to make it okay for him in return.
To be weak, with him, in private. Protected and safe, just them. ]
So no acting tough when we're alone together?
2/2
I wouldn't think less of you if you gave up a double, tbh I'd think more of you if you also gave up a single
Idk if you know what a selfish guy you swore an oath to
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( Used to being weak alone, hugging himself in a dark room, a change is greedily welcomed. He shouldn't invite Noctis this far into his soul without carefully considering it, but his desperation to be embraced by warm, safe arms while he agonizes is too great to deny.
His good mood now won't last—it never does. Why can't they prepare for that together? Why can't they prepare for Noctis' bad days, too? )
But Noctis
Don't call yourself selfish
There are many words I'd use to describe you and some are even negative but selfish could never be one of them
You've always taken care of me
( Throat tight, Kaladin turns on the sidewalk and issues a too-formal statement to his coworkers. He won't be coming in for one shift, potentially two, because he wants to spend time with his lover. They reply quickly, nonplussed, in pages of emoji and words read loudly by his implant.
Summarized, their approval is heart-warming, and his doubts are eliminated on his walk back to base. )
I'm on my way back
Shouldn't be too long so don't fall asleep again
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[ Another gentle tease right before Kaladin announces his intent. Just like that.
... suddenly he shoots up out of bed, ignoring Chauncey's annoyed "mao" in order to beeline immediately for the shared bathrooms down the hall. Kaladin – his boyfriend – is blowing off work to see him, mere hours after their mutual confessions. No way is he greeting him looking less than his best. ]
Seriously? Yeah no I'm good, I'm up, and my roommates are out
What'd you tell them
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They were surprised but happy
People have been trying to slow me down for years telling me I'm overworked
It seems only you've managed it
( Even Kaladin is concerned now with his appearance. Not overly, but he smells himself, makes sure his breath is fresh enough, and rubs tiredness from his eyes. His hair stays in a messy updo, usually unsure of what to do with it.
And considering he didn't get very far before being called back by Noctis, he fast approaches LILITH's temporary base. )
I'm not easy to impress
My standards are high and I'm slow to trust
You're
Well
I'm the winner